Sunday, July 31, 2005
i'm an oldies girl, like gen (: but we are not old

change the world -eric clapton

If I could reach the stars, I'd pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart, so you could see the truth
That this love I have inside, is everything it seems
But for now I find, it's only in my dreams

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You would think my love was really something good
Baby, if I could, change the world

If I could be king, even for a day
I'd take you as my queen, I'd have it no other way
And our love would rule, this kingdom we have made
Till then I'll be a fool, wishin' for the day

That I can change the world,
I would be the sunlight in your universe.
You would think my love was really something good,
Baby if I could change the world.
Baby if I could change the world.

I could change the world,
I would be the sunlight in your universe.
You would think my love was really something good,
Baby if I could change the world.
Baby if I could change the world.
Baby if I could change the world.


o level takers:

just like to encourage you guys with something i read. dunno about you guys but i'm starting to feel quite some amt of stress from school tests and mocks, and upcoming prelims which for me and sarah start in a month. over the weekend i felt that i wasn't making good use of my time, worrying over how i was gonna finish studying everything in a month and how well i'll end up doing.

God's our source of hope in times of trouble and need. guess that trouble and need for us is the o's and prelims. but
"because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail." lamentations 3:22

be assured that God will help us all through this stressful period. He will be the source of hope, the ray of light that shines through the darkness and guides our path.

today's devotion was about the grace of God and how God gives it so freely to help us. the person who wrote this devotion said :" God gives enough grace for each trial that we face." and a poem by anonymous:

each day God sends His loving aid
to strengthen you and me;
we need to use today's supply
and let tomorrow be.

everytime you think about how little time you have left to study or how much more you have to cram, just remember that God is always there for us and He's standing right beside you to egg you on and support you lest you fall.
put God in the centre and everyhing will come together (:
God bless and jia you!

at 8:25 PM, she let go.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

the hk trip was so fun! and too short. the whole trip was practically shopping, eating, performing, practicing, and ocean park. haha. the esprit stuff there are like cheap and their sneakers too. playing the cultural centre was cool but their sch people were so dead. like there was no exciting atmosphere and all. they should come to s'pore and see our sch concerts. they probably are next year, or maybe we'll go over again. heh. oh and their pupils are super pro can. sit beside them and play very demoralising. bleh.

but some off them are quite friendly la. and their conductor seems really nice and funny. coincidentally, he's also mr chan. haha. ymca was a nice hotel. and the shops ard it were cool. the dim sum place was nice too but 2 days in a row is not really nice. haha. the cultural centre was like 5 -10 mins walk away from the hotel. super near. though i played in the mep concert but i guess this is smth new in a sense that there was the choirs. and i really liked the finale item, esp 'for the beauty of the earth'. its a nice piece. and with the choir singing its super nice.

got high that night when zixin, mo, qian, debbie, sarah, shinq, na came over to our (me and tessa) room. cos they came up with this ymca idol thing and zixin was in all three la. she was super hilarious. and na was in one item with her. laughed till we cried la. its really retarded. there was one eskimo rap thing that zixin did with a hooded jacket and shades:

i'm an eskimo
the polar bears are cold
i'm not heather mo
i dont like jana loh
so what, fatso
then she and na did this fruits thing with the complimentary fruits they provided in the hotel room:
na: this is an apple
it is not very purple
it does not taste like snapple.
-nods. apple.
zixin: this is an orange
its color is orange
it looks so orange.
-nods. orange.
na: this is an apple
its color is very subtle
it reminds me of a shuttle.
-nods. apple.
zixin: this is an orange
it was grown on a range
the range was not very strange
-nods. orange.
na & zixin: these are fruits
they do not have roots
if you dont eat them you are toots.
-nods. fruits
it was so funny please. and zixin did an imitation of the ice princess which we watched on the flight to hk. goodness la. couldnt stop laughing. so sad its the last time performing with s.o.! i think this is the besterestest year in s.o. ever (: i love my cca and my juniors!
today during night study there was this bat stuck in the canteen and it was flying everywhere. me han mel gen and ling were super scared la. our heads were practically stuck to the canteen tables cos the bat kept swooping down. and then we heard a piak sound and they saw the bat drop on to the ground. it got hit by the fan. and it was bleeding and flopping ard the floor. so sad la. then uncle pang took a mop and picked it up and dropped it over the canteen into the track there. so sad.
then talked to sixiu and gen about stuff and me and sixiu were like explaining some stuff that happens in christian churches to gen and we were talking about the rapture and all. and its said that our generation will live to see the second coming of Christ (i'll ask dave about it) and those who dont know Christ will go to hell and it really reminded me that we need to be bold and share the gospel and that image of my friends burning in the lake of fire in hell is just too much for me to bear. its really sad and made me feel so bad that im being so scared to share and all. rahh. im not trying to force anyone to believe but God's so real and He's the only way to heaven, the only way you can be saved. its like if you found a secret to longeivity you would share that secret right? so that others can live forever too and be happy and all. God's that secret!

at 10:02 PM, she let go.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005
God is good all the time; all the time God is good

in the beginning God created man and everyone was happy (: everything was perfect. but since God created man with freewill, man sinned and fell short of the glory of God. man tried to do good stuff like donating to charities or going to church so as to try to reach God's perfect standard but nothing worked. then God sent His one and only Son down to earth to become human like us, that whoever believed in Him will not perish but have eternal life. Jesus was human but He lived a prefect life. man's sin was/is/will be forgiven when Jesus died on the cross. He created for us a way back to heaven so we can spend eternity with God and not have to burn and suffer in the lakes of fire in hell. will you choose to believe?

even now like all the sec 4s are starting to go into mugging mode and everyone's tired and all, we should still give thanks to God for everything. like paul and silas when they were imprisoned after being flogged, they still sang hymns and praised God in their not-so-good circumstances and God brought down the walls of the prison they were in and set them free after. God's good (:

FOP is coming! and hk is nearer now. heheh. ahh! so excited!

at 10:08 PM, she let go.

Thursday, July 07, 2005
gimme a break please!

im so sick of school, all the tests and hw. im glad i'll be in hong kong in about a week's time (: yay! haha. had a good chat with abby and gen today while studying with them and ling. we were talking about catholics and christians and stuff lah. and i think it was quite good cos it showed me a different side of catholics, new things that i never knew and it really showed me that sometimes these differences dont really matter cos in the end we all still believe and love God. think abby and gen are going for hillsongs too (: yay. anyone interested? its from the 5th-7th of aug at night. i think its at the indoor stadium. yup. its free so do come if you can (:

i want to slack away!
obviously not

at 6:38 PM, she let go.