Sunday, January 30, 2005

im so bushed... been shopping from like 11 something to 6.15. tiring. bought quite alot of stuff. hahas. 2 pairs of shoes, a pair of shorts, a belt, 2 tops, a bag. and whatever else. bleahs. hahas. thank God i managed to finish my hw and all that yesterday so i had some time to relax and destress while shopping today (: dinner time!

at 6:42 PM, she let go.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

sarah lent me a book i think about 2-3 weeks ago? yeah it was actually for my brother to read as sarah recommended it as a good book but my brother dissed it so i ended up reading it. i've only read till like halfway through the second chapter which is very slow cos i dont have a lot of time on my hands these days. yeah. hahas. erm. supposed to be studying for emaths test tmr but i decided to blog about the book. its called 'the case for faith' by lee strobel.

relating it to the disasters that happened, the recent tsunami being the most devastating one, the 2nd chapter roughly talks about why God allows suffering and pain to happen. firstly, God is all powerful. He can do anything that is meaningful, everything that is possible, everything that makes any sense at all. when God chose to create man, He gave them free will, so it was up to them whether they wanted to sin or not and not up to God. He created the possibility of evil, but is not the creator of evil. then why didnt God create a world without freedom? if He did, there would be no hate, no evil, but also no love. we'll end up like robots, strictly controlled by God! that wouldnt be so nice would it? the point here is that creating a world where there's free will and not possibility of sin is a self contradition and that opens the door to people choosing evil over God, with suffering being the result.

God is all knowing. not only does He know present good and evil but also future good and evil. if His wisdom vastly exceeds ours, it is at least possible that a loving God could deliberately tolerate horrible things like starvation because He forsees that in the long run, more people will be better and happier than if He miraculously intervened. for example, when God sent His Son down to earth to die on the cross for our sins, the people at that time thought that it was the worst thing that could happen, the Son of God being crucified. however God had a better plan when He chose for this to happen. He used Jesus to bridge the gap between man and Him. similarly, sometimes we cant imagine how anything good may emerge out of anything bad. but we've seen how it did in the case of Jesus and we can trust that it will in our case.

lastly, God is all good. in the book, the author describes when one of his daughters was 4 or 5, she had to thread a needle. it was difficult for her and she kept poking her finger. tho blood came out sometimes, the author never went forward to help her but stood from a distance watching. when she finally threaded it, she was elated and went to show him. the pain was a good thing for her, he says. as he treats his daughter and forseen that it was a good thing for her, so does our God who is much wiser. He is wise enough to foresee that we need some pain for reasons which we may not understand but which He foresees as being necessary to some eventual good. there are times when God allows suffering and deprives us of the lesser good of pleasure in order to help us toward the greater good of moral and spiritual education. we learn from mistakes we make and the suffering they bring. a world without suffering seems more like hell than heaven. for those of u who have watched stepford wives, u can see that the wives were made to be perfect and yet tho nice, it was so unnatural. imagine creating a world of ur own, a better world. you'd have to think of the consequence of everything u try to do improve. everytime u use force to prevent evil, u take away freeedom. to prevent all evil, u would have to remove all freedom and reduce people to puppets, which means they would lack the ability to freely choose love. u may end up creating a world of precision but you'll lose the kind of world that a Father would want.

ok. im tired. bleah. hahas. been quite busy so far. i think. all the late nights and hw and tests. oh yeah! i failed my first chem test. how saddening. lost like 9 marks to carelessness. oob. at least physics wasnt too bad. got b3. yup. falala. tests tests and more tests.

at 8:31 PM, she let go.

Friday, January 21, 2005
beach outing!

this week has been to hectic and crazy. nearly died. was quite bad moody sometimes and got easily pissed. bleah. horrible.

anyway, thank God for my cg (: we had a cg outing today. went to east coast park. they're staying over but daddy doesnt want me to so yeah. had quite a lot of fun canoeing, playing with water, tanning, screaming at unknown things in the water with sarah, laughing at some ns guys dancing grossly nearby, doing devotionals and reflections, and burying kelvin and nicholas. hahahs

i got chao ta. haha. me and sarah were back facing the sea and this huge wave just came and splashed the back of our legs and we screamed. hahahs. got a huge shock lah. then we started to wade into the water and suddenly i dropped in cos there was this step in the sand. got another shock and i screamed yet again. hahahs

oh yeah. when we were playing in the water, amy kept seeing this little fish swmming around and she was trying to point it out to me and sarah "there! there! cant u see it?!" hahahs. and we thot she was seeing things. then i was just standing there with sarah and suddenly she started screaming and pointing at something in the water. i didnt know what in the world it was so i started screaming too. hahahs. and we were backing away from it. only to realise that it was the tiny fish that amy saw. hahah. was super retarded.

crazy lah. kept screaming today at rubbish things. lol. the ns guys we saw at a bbq area near us were dancing for 3-4 hours straight. so gross... they were like having a disco in the afternoon at the beach. eeks. one part was quite farnie and we all got high laughing at them. hehe. bought twister fries before going home.

now im addicted to the song on the right (: its so nice. hahas. im gonna be so bushed this weekend. and in the many many many weeks to come. :/

at 8:10 PM, she let go.

Sunday, January 16, 2005
smelly car

goodness. my dad's car really stinks.. so gross lah. and i dont think the smell's gonna go away anytime soon. bleah.

went to cyn's house yesterday to bake linna a cake before going to linna's house with cyn and mari. cyn summarised the hong lou meng story to me and mari on the bus. hahas. but i still cant really do my speech with no chinese typing software. gahh. i shall write it out first. dont care. anyway. we had great fun at linna's house. me, cyn, mari, ling, mellin, lala and linna watched white chicks. hahas but nothing beats watching it in the cinema. then jiaxin lou and han came halfway through the show. and we watched it and then played mahjong and watched parent trap. hahas. linna's baby photos are so cute (: a born cheek. hahahs. played with linna's nameless rabbit. its so nice! but it had long scary nails. but its nice. and we took lots of photos with mellin's camera. went off with mellin and jiaxin at 5.45. bought a mag while waiting for daddy.

rahh. these few weeks are gonna be super busy. probably gonna cut down my com time and try not to be so "addicted". my cousin's irritating me. she's really getting on my nerves. i know i should be more understanding but this cant keep going on. RAH!

lotsa stuff to do. being terrorised and my sms is going up.

at 1:11 PM, she let go.

Friday, January 14, 2005
in school :D

muaha. i ate orange bowl chilli today!! and tomorrow going to linna's house. muaha

back home. cca was super farnie today. hahas. shant mention it here cos i think its quite bad lah. hahah. studied some physics while waiting for daddy who went for the parent's teacher's meeting. he had a hangover last night when he went to entertain his big big BIG BIG bosses together with the other managers. the car smells of puke. so gross.

im so tired. i need to sleep. bleah. a cokroach bullied me last night. it invaded my room and chased me out. evil thing...

at 1:25 PM, she let go.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005
deprived on fried food day!

oh no. everyone kept tempting me today! like most people walking past me and sitting around me all eating fried food. so jealous. but i didnt succumb to the temptation (: hahah. but i think my throat's getting better. yup.

had my first physics lesson of the year. mrs khong's a good teacher but she's a bit fast. and what's more me han and gen didnt attend her previous lessons so most of the time we were like 'huh-ing' away asking so many questions cos we dunno what's going on. haha. saw the moe mep list of names in our sch. was so retarded lah. like some of the names were distorted beyond recognition and details were all wrong. so crappy the whole row of us just kept laughing. haha.

oh yeah! english lesson was super fun today! ms fazi made us cut out interesting pictures, funny phrases and words, and then made us stick it all on a piece of paper to form something random. hahahs. i did with mellin, han and ling. was darn funny lah. just kept laughing.

"look up, live up; she was in the doldrums after sylvester lost singapore idol."
"money sale at paragon, delighting you always. students get $2 off!"
"real chicken fillet! true or false? yes!"

at 7:34 PM, she let go.

Monday, January 10, 2005

sleepy day cos it was cold.. haha. lessons werent too bad but i was so tempted to sleep! bleahs. still worn out from the camp. stayed back with ling and linna to do hw. like got so many things to do but then not really doing. rahh.. auditions tmr. so fun (: can watch. ahahas. then got cca also.

stop terrorising me (us)!

at 9:51 PM, she let go.

Sunday, January 09, 2005
ew ew ew!

gosh. i found ants in the spine of my big bible! so sick lah. i was gonna do qt. then i put my bible on my bed. saw ants crawling around and found them coming from my bible. so i sat on the floor and shook my bible and a whole lot of ant eggs came out. and ants fell out too. some are just stuck there cannot come out. so digusting! yucks... i wanted to throw my bible away cos i dont think its really possible to get all the ants out. then my dad said leave the bible outside for the night and see whether the ants crawl somewhere else. oh man. was so gross!

at 8:47 PM, she let go.

Saturday, January 08, 2005
my voice broke!

the week's finally over! so fast lah. orientation for sec one is over. on tues, wed, and thurs we didnt really do much. more talks and such.

orientation camp (:
outdoor games, indoor games and wet games. wet games was sick lah. so gross. hahahs. but it was fun. yeah. campfire was great! the sky was super dark when they lighted the campfire with the fireball thing. then 5 minutes later it rained so we went to the forum for the 'campfire'. tho it wasnt much of a campfire but it was really fun. me, rach, janis and qing went high lah. scream and shout and etc etc. we kept laughing like crazy gundus and i think we were enjoyying more than the sec ones? hahah. and i lost my voice by the time it was the tangyuan thing. did the warm fuzzies before sending the wisdom girls to sleep in the infinity lab with mrs seet. then 4 of us went to bath and we did warm fuzzies and souvenirs for the entire morning. never sleep lah. best. we were supposed to get it over and done with fast so maybe can get some sleep. in the end we keep talking rubbish and laughing our heads off and stoning till we delay. then in the last one house before the waking up time we were rushing like crazy. lol.

surprisingly i didnt feel tired throughout the whole morning. i was told to play for cca fair cos i skipped cca on fri and claire and qing said it was quite bad. so yeah. s.o. people keep laughing at my voice.. bleahs. hahas. then met sarah at macs and we went up the church hill to eat lunch before going for yf. yf people also laughed at my voice. was so tired that i dozed off during the video thing. hehe. then chrystal wanted to ask me what time it was and she realised i was sleeping. hahaha. whoops. but i woke up. and the more i look at the screen, the more i felt like going back to sleep but i managed not to. cg time was fun. quite silly lah, did some disscussion and then talked about cg outings. haha. now my voice is seriously gone. cant talk properly. gotta whisper. goodness. wondering if i should sleep now or do theory. but i think i shall sleep. super tired. tmr got cip at 2. hope we get it.

gahh. so many things, so little time!

at 7:52 PM, she let go.

Monday, January 03, 2005
first day of school ((:

green classroom.. so exciting! the only sec four in that whole level. but it's so spacious. and come to think of it, its more convenient than the other sec 4 classes. i think. hahahs. was so cold in the morning. whole day practically like a speech day. speeches from all 3 sec heads. so long.. bleahs. finally got to eat orange bowl in like 5469843651 million years! yay! the taste of the nice nice orange bowl. stayed back in sch with ling and linna and later jiaxin cos we were chionging hw and linna and jiaxin and ling also studied amaths. we were the only people there studying lah. hahahs like some kiasu nerds or smth. lol.

lala has turned into a dark cheek! after all those swimming classes with ineffective ways of putting on sun block. hahahs. oh yeah, linna gave me this christmas ball with pooh and tigger on it! so cute can ((: thanks alot CHEEK! i was like obsessed with it during the study session. hahas.

was watching tv after dinner just now. and that eye-brow plucker guy came on tv again! he's practically in all those tv things. first it was star search, then singapore idol and now this chinese show. so gross. he stripped again. i dont think he's meant to be an eyebrow plucker. more like a stripper in some ulu night club. was watching it with my sister and both of us were laughing and crying. really disgusting. i think he should be banned! eeks. and just last fri when we were going to buy grace a skirt i saw him terrorising a caucasian outside tangs, tricking her into letting him do her eyebrows.. yucks.

we suspect one of the painters stole the s.o. banner! all the hard work down the drain thus we have to do it again tomorrow.. oob.

at 9:54 PM, she let go.

Saturday, January 01, 2005
i am sec 4!

oh no. so scary. i dont want to be a sec 4 student. bleahs. anyway im like blogging at this crazy hour when i should be sleeping. hahas.

camp comm lunch was quite fun. and we bought grace a skirt! hahahs. she's gonna wear it to church tomorrow. how interesting ((: p&p was good. just thanked God for the things happening in ministries and committed the new year to Him (: slept at 12.45 am and woke up at 10. nice nice. hahas. cooked porridge for lunch again and i forgot to add in the salt and stuff AGAIN and my brother was complaining that it was tasteless.. hahas.

yf was quite ok. the rearranged the sec4 cgs so it was abit weird but hopefully we'll get used to it soon. yup. got the camp comm pillow! hahas. its small but like so un-squishy. oh well. i like it anyhow. hahas. so now i have 4 pillows on my bed. how nice (:

bleahs all the junk im consuming. bad bad bad. my poor throat. maybe i should go on a fruit and veg diet again. hahas and fail terribly at reaching my goal.

oh no school is starting!

falala. im back to using the old gbk cos the new one must pay. oob. oh well, it works just as well (:

at 11:07 PM, she let go.