Tuesday, August 31, 2004
teacher's day!

today's the eve of teacher's day (: did aces workout which turned out to be the line dance. sheesh.

prefects item: it was a total flop. totally screwed lah. every one of us was quite upset after that. tho its not our fault but some of us feel that we sorta spoiled the performance. yeah. will try to apply what i read in pdl yesterday. look forward to the future, forget the past cos you cant change it. focus on what God has planned ahead for u (:

geri got stomach flu and puked so many times after recess. GET WELL SOON DEAR (: please pray for her! cello lesson was ok i guess. she made me play bach which i didnt practice at all and she said it was very good... muahaha. scary. i was supposed to go and photocopy the piano accmpt for my habanera. so she was planning to go toilet till she saw heather, zixin and jieying then she turned to walk back. then i was discussing with zixin about her present. 4 of us standing there talking. so suspicious u know. so suspicious.. haha. then i went to photocopy. yes. haha. but i did ok. yeah. went opp sch to get a big sunflower for her (: yes. and me and zixin were waiting outside the room for jiang and mel to finish their lesson. and stupid zixin made me walk backwards to hide the flower. and when she got the flower and the card (yes we made her a so called card) she seemed hilariously happy. hahas. ok. yeah.

went to taka after that. had lunch at yoshinoya cos orange bowl was out of stock! so sad. ok. went to the studio the practice. the piano is nice bright and loud (: yay! but its hard to play. hope i'll get used to it by the next practice... yup. got aural tmr...

at 7:55 PM, she let go.

Monday, August 30, 2004
sore arm

slept so well last night i didnt want to wake up. watched the rhythmic gym finals last night. the russians are so good! pro-ded. makes me wanna stretch more. haha.

really didnt bother about ss till ss lesson when ms low didnt come so we did self study. was curling ribbons all day for xin's flowers. so fun (: hahas. addicted. during physics, mr tay tried to keep the class quite and he clapped his hands. which reminded us of imran and i was like at the back clapping and laughing. think i was quite mean tho most of us were laughing cos after that he came to my table and he was like 'what's so funny?' then i just kept looking down till he walked away.. oops. felt quite bad after that. yeah. ss test was sourced based so not that bad. geri hor never come for the whole day. right after ss test she walked in and 'hello!' stupid girl. she went to see doc. and went for massage also. not funny lah. kena sunburned from the netball fest like the rest of the netballers. crazy. they played from 7am -6pm can? so hot!

pmb farewell was quite alright. thot some people would get emotional or something but it was alright. gave presents and exchanged hugs and blah blah. then went to prac the item again. left at 5.50 for piano. was quite alright.

i hate the weather. so freaking hot!
warning: potential quitter... hahas

at 8:25 PM, she let go.

Sunday, August 29, 2004

oh my goodness. im so bushed. woke up at 7.10 cos daddy was late. went for the run. supposed to do the 3.2km one but blur me didnt see the sign and went down the wrong one which was 4.8km. ran till the main road where i stopped and walked. then run walk run walk all the way back. grr. anyway. was so tired. daddy got first for the veteran runners (: so proud of him! haha. went to upp thompson for breakfast. ate wanton mee and prata. feel quite shiok now. need to go take a bath tho. its gonna be a busy day...


with you - jessica simpson

The real me is a southern girl
With her Levi's on and an open heart
Wish I could save the world
Like I was Supergirl
The real me used to laugh all night
Lyin in the grass just talkin' bout love
But lately I've been jaded
Life got so complicated

I start thinkin' about it
I almost forgot what it was like
To know what love feels like

But with you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me
Right before I hit the ground
With nothin' but a t-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you

You speak and it's like a song
And just like that all my walls come down
It's like a private joke
Just meant for us to know
I relate to you naturally
Everybody else just fades away
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
Just knowing you found me

Cuz' I start thinkin' about it
I almost forgot what it was like
To know when it feels right

Cuz' with you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me
Right before I hit the ground
With nothin' but a t-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you
With you with you with you

Come and take me
Love you, save me
Like nobody else
Now I can be myself with you

I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me
Right before I hit the ground
With nothin' but a t-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you

love this song (:

purpose driven life (pdl) day 2
you are not an accident
we are on this earth because of God's divine timing. He knew us and created us in the image He wanted us to be long before we were born. He wanted to create u. He gave u the parents and family you have now, whether good or bad to you, to mould u into the person He wanted u to become. He even created this earth for us to live in. everything was planned with great precision. He did everything out of love for us (:

at 10:37 AM, she let go.

Saturday, August 28, 2004
new syf piece

this line is dedicated to samantha neo who has nicely helped me get the signatures of the swim shadys ((: THANK YOO SAMNEOO!!

yes ok. back here. got a lift from jie again. saw the new piece. it didnt seem modern at all. but it is super nice i tell u! a bit hard to play tho. i need to practice. its so nice!!! whee. muaha. did teacher's day item with manda, melody and sara. God really rocks k. i told Him yest that i was very very unsure of whether we should change our item cos of the time limit we have. and He seems to have shown us that we are able to do it (: cos we didnt really spend very long on it and we still managed to complete what we had in mind. thank God ((: yup. studied one chpt of ss till joy and zixin finished watching their black adder.

had lunch with zixin. it was funny. saw becky studying with her ex-classmates. then headed of to church. think today's message was really inspiring (: cg time led by dave cos yewya didnt come. then we had fellowship time. it'll be in bible quizzes for the next few weeks i think? haha. i want to be the next buzzer. yay! waited for dad. dinner was nice... im starting to love eating pumpkin. its nice. haha. random.

ok. tomorrow will be quite very packed. will be travelling alot. got daddy's company thing in the morning. then going back home. then church. then lunch. then send russ to sch for his performance. then go back. and most likely i'll have group playing tho im not really keen. hope there's not enough space on the list. i'd rather go for the next one. yup. and i need to do hw and study! btw i've alr got the purpose driven life book. gonna start reading later... yup.

at 7:47 PM, she let go.

Friday, August 27, 2004
cute guys cute guys!

muaha! gary tan and mark chay are so cute! oops not obvious at all lah. haha

hmm. physics was expt in the lab. quite fun lah. marbles rolling down a ramp. ahaha. pe was tiring. as in the warm up round cos me and han ran 4 rounds before assembly. yeah. but soft ball's fun (: played round robin and COWS won (: haha. maths was circles and quite confusing but figured out most stuff in the end. recess me, sara, trish, dom, zoerraine and amanda went to staff room to try and take some pics but we failed cos they all went for meeting! so back to class. did some maths. ate some biscuits. chi got back paper. 41/50. quite good i guess. yup.

mrs tan was so nice. let our whole class off ten mintues early from hist. we were so kiasu can. haha. everyone went to buy food and our whole class just plonked in the middle of the fam lounge. when mark chay made his 'grand' entrance everyone was like screaming their heads off. haha. they're quite good. yeah. everyone was taking photos throughout.

but sadly it was anticlimax after that. cos i had to rush down for s.o. announcements which werent made in the end. and mr chan says first stand of each section dont need to audition! whee! God is so good (((: yeah. then rushed up to hall to do teacher's day stuffs. were quite very screwed for our item but we can do it with God on our side! im sure (: wanted to go take photos and like hang around fam lounge but couldnt. stayed doing teacher's day stuff till 7.30. and the school is scary at night i tell u! so freaky! eeks. anyway.


at 8:49 PM, she let go.

Wednesday, August 25, 2004
chi test tmr!

hello hello.

got back physics today. and i got a whopping 31/40!!! hahas. didnt expect to get so high can. really thank God cos it'll pull up my grade. i think. anyway. recess was taken by comm phototaking. no life eat burger. which is still bread so yeah. did chem prac with hanny. and let me introduce my permanent lab partner to you. his name is boonsak papaya. or in short. b.p. ((((: he holds my test tubes. haha.

really stuffed myself for lunch. feel like such a pig today. eat so much. ate like crispy noodles, 2 seaweed chicken, fish and a drink... crazy lah. oh well. got back mep paper and realised i wasted 4 marks. how nice. grr. got SO MUCH HW to do over the hols. i really dunno how im gonna cope. having to practice for my exam too. crap. hmm. pray that i'll learn to be more dependant on God for His provision of sufficient time. yup. audition on sat too. so scared. ahh. and teacher's day's coming. got quite some things to do. and pmb farewell. and ss test and amaths test. oh no oh no!!! -pulls hair. better go study chi now.

oh yeah. i forgot to add. the swim shadys are coming to sngs this friday. then when mrs kuek was making the announcement during assembly, she read out the names of the band members. then when she read mark chay, some lower sec girls screamed lah. so smart. the whole sch was laughing at them lorh. hahas. then lulu chew even better. "i shall go to watch them on friday and ask them for any australian swimmer's contact, or even better, ian thorpe's number" hahahs. so cute.

at 6:53 PM, she let go.

Tuesday, August 24, 2004
peeling fingers.

i suddenly feel so healthy ((: hahas. cos i finally went to run with han and lift stupid weights cos ms chew thinks my arms are too weak. found out that my left arm is so fragile. it needs to train! daddy says he might get some dumbbells. hahas. after morning jog the whole level got lectured on our attire. pfft. and cos i had rashes last night my legs were in pain. and we sat there for so long dripping in perspiration. so gross. lit was boring as usual. during chi zhanglaoshi made us go to the eco garden to look at the lotus flower. hahas. and then she made us write a paragraph about it. i just crapped my way through. oops. haha.

recessed with cyn, marilyn and linna. stelli didnt eat with us cos her knee and ankle were hurting again so she couldnt really walk. yup. nice gen bought fruits for her to eat (: chem we had to go to the lab. felt so bad for stelli cos she had to walk so far! and mrs ang also didnt do any experiments. sheesh. oh well. slacked for chi reading a mag. got back my emaths paper. got 35/50. could have done better thanks to my careless mistakes. grr. oh well. at least i got an A. me geri and trish were counting our expected L1R5 for this term. gonna be the worstest ever. eeks.

zhao was an hour late for lesson. but at least she told me she'll be late. didnt do any pieces except bach. she went through dvorak with me cos audition's on sat and occ came back so i suppose she talked to her. yeah. i need to practice for this stupid audition. NO THUMB! stayed back after that and tried to study some chi with jie ying laughing at herself in the background. very condusive. haha. silly girl. practiced dvorak a while after zixin's lesson then went to eat lunch. very late lunch. at like 5.30 liddat. yeah. just had a bath. feel so shiok. ahahas. gonna prac piano and study later.

"18 Then I realized that it is good and proper for a man to eat and drink, and to find satisfaction in his toilsome labor under the sun during the few days of life God has given him-for this is his lot. 19 Moreover, when God gives any man wealth and possessions, and enables him to enjoy them, to accept his lot and be happy in his work-this is a gift of God. 20 He seldom reflects on the days of his life, because God keeps him occupied with gladness of heart. "

ecclesiastes 5:18-20

at 7:07 PM, she let go.

Monday, August 23, 2004

bObAY bIS bA bICE bAY!

haha. letter of the day is B! hahas. everyone's name starts with b. for example. jiaxin becomes bIAbIN and lalaliang becomes bAbAbIANG! yay! hahas ok. enough.

got back amaths paper today. i could have passed. by 2 marks. was so pisssed with myself. oh well. the whole level's to have a retest next friday. yucks. last day of sch somemore. evil. during recess had cca meeting. think it was quite productive. discussed quite alot of stuff. yup. chionged recess with kok, joy and debbie. went back for ss which ms low came in 1/2 an hour late and she made us write essays in groups of 5. quite fun lah. did with han, lala, nette and jingyi. stupid lala kept on making me laugh. she's so cute. haha. after that mr tay came for physics. we bugged him to revise and give hints but he said that he hasnt seen the paper so he cannot give us hints. pfft. me and lala were laughing at him. EVIL! hahahs. dont wanna talk about the test. heck it.

tauhuayed once in a long time with geri and lala. and lulu who tagged along with no money. haha. went home looking for the poor lost bun bun in the park at tamarind there. jie saw it on thurs, fri and we both saw it on sat. its a nice cute brown bun with floppy ears. hahas. but i couldnt find it. wanted to give it to qianya if it was still there. hope the owner bothered to take it back alr. and pray that the construction workers did not do something bad to it. it looked so innocent hanging out with the chickens on saturday morning! hahas. so cute (((: piano was another intensive which totally killed my arms. dinner felt weird cos we had fried shrimps which usually come with the egg. but as u know there's the bird flu so there's no egg! and it looked so wrong. hahas. just practiced cello. fingers hurt now.

gonna have sectionals tmr with the sec2s after lesson. audition is on saturday!!! quite scared. crap. running with han tmr morning too before assembly and then going to the gyn to do some weights. ms chew says that i need to exert more force and i cant exert anymore on her piano so im gonna work out. hahas.

at 8:39 PM, she let go.

Sunday, August 22, 2004
hot day!

felt so nice this morning. woke up at almost 9. my thighs weren't feeling that bad alr cos i used deep heating rub (: then realised that my itchy fingers took off my ankle guard in the middle of the night without my knowing. haha. was early for church for once in a long time. oops. haha. yeah. couldnt really seem to pay attention to the msg tho. just felt tired still. like last week. and these next two weeks are sure to be super busy and draining. grr. went for lunch at lavender st hawker centre. nice fishball noodles. asked the auntie to add chilli but it wasnt that hot till i added the cut chilli which was shiok! hahas. gonna have chilli crab for dinner. i cant wait (: thot i would take an afternoon nap but ended up reading 8 days and listening to my new maroon 5 cd, songs about jane. only recognised a few songs tho. but this one's nice

she will be loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

gna watch li jia wei play now! ta.

yes im supposed to be finishing up bits of physics but im slacking. li jia wei lost! so sad. to that korean great defence girl. grr. so wasted yesterday's match between her and the 40th ranking in the world. she could have won and got into the finals. the chilli crab was nice but not ask shiok as expected. oh well.

"Guard your steps when you go to the house of God. Go near to listen rather than to offer the sacrifice of fools, who do not know that they do wrong. Do not be quick with your mouth, do not be hasty in your heart to utter anything before God. God is in heaven and you are on earth, so let your words be few. As a dream comes when there are many cares, so the speech of a fool when there are many words. When you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfil your vow. It is better not to vow than to make a vow and not fulfil it. Do not let your mouth lead you into sin. And do not protest to the temple messenger in anger, "my vow was a mistake." Why should God be angry at what you say and destroy the work of your hands? Much dreaming and many words are meaningless. Therefore stand in awe of God."
-Ecclesiastes 5:1-7

at 5:49 PM, she let go.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

muscle aches everywhere. how nice. esp my thighs. hurt like crazy when i walk. pfft. twisted my right ankle again today so its quite pok now.

got a lift from jie again! haha. cca was in the other mep room cos mr wong made us shift so he could have sec 4 make up lesson. totally got me so angry and i thot it would have spoilt my day but thank God i got over it and he's forgiven (: haha. had some thai delegates over today to watch us play. we were made to arrange our shoes outside nicely so that we would leave a good fake impression. yupyup. think we really improved this week (: yay! watched 2 episodes of blackadder again. haha. then ate lunch with joy again and finished chem too.

think worship today was a bit messy but it was good. me and cheryl got quite lost during 'rain down' cos the beat got off. yup. but it was alright after that. message was good too. think God really works well but even better after we have gotten to know more of Him through reading His word. yup. cg time was ok lah. but a tad too rowdy cos joel nah got called away for reservice so the cat high guys joined us and they were quite noisy. didnt have debrief tho i thot it would have been good to have one but nvm. talked to dave abit while waiting for daddy. cos he was downstairs waiting for dinner to come. yup.

during qt just now an interesting verse from ecclesiastes

"to the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God."
-ecclesiastes 2:26a

off to physics!

at 7:42 PM, she let go.

Friday, August 20, 2004
bad night

hohoho. my poor fourth finger on my right hand got caught in between sliding glass panels of my living room window and is temporarily quite dead. yes. and i was innocently trying to close the window. now its got a cut and a numb feeling. thot i would end up not being able to play cello today but thank God i could.

handing over ceremony today. quite ok lah but they have the same thing every year so it starts to get boring. but still nice to watch i guess. haha. softball! is fun. especially when u visit lala's grass home (her base) and u get a stalk of some funny grass she plucks from the ground. haha. so cute. emaths test was alright i think. i wanna get back lit paper and amaths. grr. recessed with linna, stelli, cyn and marilyn. ate proper food for once! yay! haha.

our class tried to recite the mo4 xie3 to zhanglaoshi in hope that we didnt have to write it out for her. but well she didnt buy it and we still had to write. history was kinda boring. mrs tan went through the paper. oh yeah! cos we were waiting for mrs tan to come so some of us were doing hw. geri wanted to borrow the chem paper from her senior, chiki. so i went with her to get. then when we went to her class mrs brenda tan was inside so chiki pretended to go to the toilet. then me and geri were beside the door checking for the right ws. managed to find it after some scrambling. geri smart lah. dont want to be seen by teacher (cos chiki was on one side and we were on the other) so she just slid the remainding ws across the floor past the door. not funny. like some wind blew it over to chiki. ridiculous man. haha. so drama.

during lunch the sky was so dark and the wind was quite strong. so cold! cca was good i guess. think we worked alot today and did quite a good job. just hope we wont forget what is expected of us. audition pushed back one day cos friday some people cannot make it. ended slightly earlier today. went to buy some stuff, went home to take a bath and dinner and went to church. think the meeting was good. short and sweet unlike some last year. oops. ahaha. was so tired. as usual. hope jie's going to work in a cab tmr. then i can hitch a ride again. hees. too lazy to go myself.

and now i dont dare to look on the back of my cello alr. its got some unsightly scratches cos it got knocked over today ))))))))))): im gonna send it for repair. i think. my poor cello!

at 9:37 PM, she let go.

Thursday, August 19, 2004
screwed bgrd

changed my blogskin cos the other one was screwed. yup. i sort of improvised with a older skin cos the pic couldnt be seen either so i changed it (: ok. jiaxin didnt come to sch today. she was sick. and it was so quiet! so sad. no psychoticness for a day makes everyone dull. assembly was funny. people danced a traditional punjabi dance. certain teachers too. and stray comments from the people in the av room. hahas. stayed back in sch to study maths with debbie lee. got bored after a while cos there was nothing much to study after that. and debbie was trying to entertain people with her tongue. and her pocky sticks. haha. will do some tys later.

p.e. tmr. softball! haha. i might go run. still feel unfit. and maths is after p.e. once again. how nice. but i think im more confident? yup. suddenly feel so pumped up for cca. when i can play my cello (: haha. oops. and on saturday too. see if i can get a taxi ride from jie then. hees. too lazy to walk.

at 7:46 PM, she let go.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

i'm stressed! (or so i think) haha. i was at least.

yesterday: i got back my chem paper. 27.5/40! im happy but pissed. 1/2 mark from an A! and the last time was 1 mark. pfft. but at least i passed which is good (: cello was alright. practising outside before lesson. heard some sec 4s practising for their 2nd instru exam. play so well can? especially a certain someone called malisa bay. crazy geniuses. oh well. didnt really get scolded but she went very detailed for habanera and for no good reason i got a bit high. kept on laughing for no reason. even worse after zixin's lesson.

before that i got high with my WEIRD SENIOR jiang. when stella(s2) and audrey came for lesson they had it in the mep room which i was studying in (i had my lesson in the storeroom) yeah. then zixin was hanging around too. so we got quite high. and sniggers could be heard throughout the lesson tho some bits were caused by ms zhao herself. oops. haha. i love my weird senior and my psychotic junior ((:

later went up and found the zixin's bag was locked in 2f classroom. had to go find the uncle with her to open it. dropped her outside her house and came back. was working on my pop song from 8 to 10.30. yeah. so tired after that i couldnt be bothered to study anymore and went to sleep.

today: stoned and studied (or tried to) and touched up my composition before recess. when mr tay came in for lesson geri was like 'wrong lesson!' then they corrected her. and suddenly the whole group of people at the back were like. today's debbie's birthday lets sing her a birthday song (: i ran out of the class lah! abit not my birthday only lah. cos on monday we sang a super slow birthday song for yanhan during physics and wasted 5 minutes. haha.

another fun thing was... asterisk moments! **** i love asterix! hahas. lou printed out pictures of hanny's dear ronny and her own ian thorpey. also some details about them and put side by side with the heading 'who is no. 1?' hahas. so cute can.they decorated the whole board with their pictures and now its on the wall. then earlier on lou said that she had to turn around to see her beloved ian so she resorted to using a mirror to see his face! haha. and she said hi every once in a while to the 'ian-in-the-mirror'. hahas. farnie. then they moved it in front so that she didnt have to use a mirror.

mtg for s.o. people. was about the auditions. its 1.5 weeks away! better practice... sat in storeroom and played with zixin's cello which was found on the floor. kept it after that and went back to class. had no life again. i ate bread. haha. chem was quite alright. chinese really made me felt like sleeping if not for the fact that i didnt want to miss out impt zhang lao shi said so i stayed awake and studied.

mep test is really really tricky.. cunning mr wong. he still say so easy. at least i passed ((: thank God. got 12/20. and how did i know so fast? cos after that he went through chinese opera and chinese folksong in 10 minutes and dismissed us! earliest dismissal in mep history! i will never forget this important day! haha. mr cher didnt come too. yup. so i stayed back to do hw in the mep room cos some people had to finish their compositions before they could leave. and mr wong said that we have to start on our first draft for o level! sheesh. due by end of sept hols. oh well. gotta do some stuff now.

at 7:17 PM, she let go.

Monday, August 16, 2004
yay! mep test cut down (:

thank God! the mep test has been cut down! yay! wont be able to cram so much if it had not been (: hahas. but still i've gotta study hard. today was a tiring day. or at least i felt tired today. haha. and we celebrated hanny's bdae in class. nearly got killed by mrs cheong. we were lighting the candles, fan lights off and windows closed. then me geri trish lighting candles and suddenly the window opened and mrs cheong got a shock! and we got a shock and she kept on inquiring. so anti climax. grrs. then she made us got to the canteen to do it. but it was funny. jiaxin bought magic relightable candles. which had sparks coming out of them. ahahs. fun!


tmr got morning jog i might run extra. hahas. cello lesson at 3.30 cos ms zhao got rehearsal. yup

at 9:17 PM, she let go.

Sunday, August 15, 2004
pfft. i got a headache.

its sunday! haha. ok. out of point. nvm. slept till 8.20 or so. daddy bought wanton mee for breakfast. was quite nice. went for second today. was paying attention to the speaker but was really thinking. does that make sense? haha. was still feeling tired.

hmm. had the log meeting after that tho it took us quite awhile to get out of church cos everyone was running everywhere. or mainly the guys. yeah. took some photos with sarah chia cos she's leaving on thursday. yup. hmm. me shukun and edmund met justin at city hall mrt. justin went for first so he went out with the yfers to ps and he was playing x box. yup. had some thai food for lunch. it was quite nice. discussed some basic log stuff. yeah. lasted till about 2.30 -2.40. then went off to clarke quay to meet sarah for the chinese opera 'workshop'. climbed the silly 90 steps from the mrt to the ground floor. was so tired after that. haha

saw bernice, grace, mandy, hueili, tessa and some sec 4s. it was quite an interesting event. we thot it would be quite crowded but it was in fact really empty. think people should go for these things. its quite educational. we had a mask changing demo, face painting demo, 2 acting demos and a tour of the backstage, makeup room and the history of it. it was much better than going to an actual performance. well thats what i think cos its less boring when u get to interact with the masters and its not draggy or something you dont understand. yup. too bad today is the last day. it was good (: but since the school sponsored like 12 out of the 15 bucks, mrs cheong wants us to create a poster each. pfft. i'd rather pay back the 12 bucks and dont do it. irritating. sheesh.

talked to sarah abit walking along the singapore river. then went back. got a bit of a headache but just ignored it. i think i need more sleep. what i wont be getting much of next week. : oh well.

at 7:14 PM, she let go.

Saturday, August 14, 2004
God is good (:

yay! God rox my world (: He's the greatest and the bestest daddy! hahas. i'm well already! just a teeny weeny insy bit sick. had a good night's rest yesterday tho i was still reluctant to get out of bed for cca this morning. thank God for a nice rich (i think) sister. haha. oops. ok. cos i walked out with her and i tompang-ed a lift in the cab she hailed. so i got to school nice and not exhausted from walking. and had lotsa time to sit in the canteen and stone while eating a biscuit and drinking the yummilicious ice tea (:

was staring into space when i saw mr wong walking past the pillar beside me. thot he wouldnt see me so i just looked around. haha. then suddenly he turned around and saw me and he grinned. like really really wide? its scary. and i just sorta waved cos i didnt know what else to do! eeks. ok. cca was really tranquil. i like it. haha. tho we have to wake up early. but it was a productive 2 hours spent. then after cca tessa went to put back the conductor's stuff. and found mr wong sleeping in the office. how nice. haha. was really funny tho i didnt get to see. cos we all saw him in the morning and then the lights went off so we were wondering why he came to school for since he left. haha.

was about to leave when mr wong played blackadder in the mep room. so me, tessa, jie ying, jia fang, heather, huei li and joy stayed back to watch. some others joined later. it was nice. and funny. hehs. heard mr wong bought it when he went to london to study. had lunch in sch with joy. talked about extra practice. haha. then we went back down to help a bit with the mep auditions. yeah. left around slightly later than one. took a bus and saw eileen and mellin. eating ice cream. haha. dropped at the mrt with mel. went to popular at tp to get ss textbook. saw joy as in amy teo's sister at the 28 waiting area. but we didnt exchange greetings cos i dont think she knows me. yeah. so i sat with my cello near the exit of the bus and she was behind somewhere on the right side. then when i was about the alight saw her sleeping and i didnt wake her up! felt so guilty after that. then i told amy when i saw her. but in the end i didnt see joy at yf so maybe she was going somewhere else? i hope! oops. ok. haha.

think the msg today was so-so. cos its quite basic. about time management. yup. cg was quite fun. not that quiet. nearly fell asleep tho. was lying on the floor. hehs. but i was paying attention! ok. not doing ushering cos now they want us to do first and there's no point in me going for first and then having to wait till the end of second for meeting. going for the chinese opera thing after that. it'd better be good.

God bless you ((((:

at 7:51 PM, she let go.

Friday, August 13, 2004
desperate for sleep!

-heaves a sigh of relief! the week is finally over! yay! hahas. was so tired today. couldnt find marilyn when i came to school so i was wonder woman for 5 minutes. haha. carried the boxes and my cello from the forum to classroom. physics was quite ok. me geri and trish not very obvious lah. big amaths tbk on the table with mrs low sitting right behind us. -grins! but she was nice. or at least maybe she didnt want to scold. wait. that still means she was nice. ok haha. went for the hep b third dose. the delivery man didnt come on time so we were studying amaths in the drama studio while waiting. managed to get jabbed by the time it was maths lesson. it hurt. the test was gross. so hard! but i couldnt be bothered to rush through. just took my own sweet time and did what i could. mtg during recess. got linna to get smth for me. turned out me stelli and her got no life. eat bread. haha. cos cyn went to do cldds stuff and marilyn went with charlotte cow so yeah. chinese lesson i was doing amaths hw cos i didnt want to bring back tbk. alr had so many things to carry. finished by the end of hist. was curling ribbons for cyn. haha. quite fun.

after school went to econs with claire val and joli to get soft drinks for farewell. bought macs ice cream too ((((((((: haha. rushed back and ate orange bowl. went str to cca. was quite messy at first but alright in the end. cca was till 4.30. and there were these funny flies in the mep room. vln 1 terminators killed them all. all 14 of them. one came from the light above my stand. stupid insect just smacked itself onto my score. haha. farewell wasnt that emotional like some other ccas but it was good... quite sad tho. i'll miss the sec 4s. walked with zixin to take 265. waited like 20 mintues for the bus? was so tired. then waited for 70 for another 20 mintues. grrr. nearly slept at the bus stop. came back slowly. so many things to do, so little time. got cca again tmr morning. really wanna pon but technically i cant. pfft.

reading a nice book at the moment: ten thousand lovers

at 7:45 PM, she let go.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

hellos. lets do a quick update before i get too busy later. had lessons with the new physics teacher. he has a lot of things in common with imran! scary! hahas. chem test was quite alr. think i'll at least pass. got back chinese paper. got 90.5! was quite happy will pull up my lousy marks. hahas. mep was quite alright. starting with mr wong ending with mr cher. mr cher's lesson was boring. did chords again and he went quite slowly. pfft! after dinner went down to taka to book studio. all the days in front were taken! managed to get one before teacher's day and one before actual exam. -freaks out! its coming!! went shopping for a while. saw a nice pullover but the quality was lousy and not worth the price. so went to buy breakfast stuffs. watched s'pore idol and did **** *** **** and graphic organiser till 11.

today. finished my review. just need to edit some parts later and get someone to print for me. was so tired. wanted to sleep during lit but mrs y kept asking us to sit up. grr. heritage trail was rather fun. got high. pure bananas are good ((: shared a huge ice kachang in less than 4 mintues. crazy lah. went to amk, tp and jln leban. our grp was the second last in class. hahas. now im stoned. gonna do **** ******* later, last bit of review and study for amaths test tmr. test not a bit after p.e lah. very can think. im sure..

at 7:02 PM, she let go.

Tuesday, August 10, 2004
national day break

was quite tired. wanted to skip piano but i was a good girl and i went ((: haha. and ms chew said i improved! tho i actually didnt practice much. got my exam date. 15th sept. on wed. i shall see if i can skip mep.. hehe. ms chew was preparing to go watch ndp. so kan chiong. put sun block, hat, preparing all those stuff. haha. so cute. cos she never went to a parade before. lols.

went home and fell asleep on the living room floor. so nice. like to sleep there. haha. slept for 2 hours before chiong-ing to take a bath and getting squished in the backseat of the car with 3 other people unable to put on my other sock and shoe. how pathetic. went to maxwell market for dinner. had popiah and a drink. then we went to watch the parade on some big screen tv in a high rise aircon building. near neptune hotel. and the fireworks could be seen. so nice!! got back in time to watch singapore idol. it was so funny. esp the lemon tree guy, and the guy who sang so softly. crazy! hahas. then watched becker on star world and thunderpants! its a cute show. haha. farts can save the world! ((: ok. enough. slept at 11.45 cos i tossed in bed for 45 mintues? best lah.

woke up at six plus. dunno why. natural reaction. hahas. yeah. then after i got out at like 7 my bro woke up and said that he needed to go to sch. he checked with his friend who said yes. and he cabbed down and turned out there was no school. but i thot it was like duh no school today? oh wells. i went to school for chem. cos mrs ang didnt come for the whole of last week so our class is quite lost. but it was ok lah. managed to understand most of what she went through but im still blur some parts? esp mole! i hate it. grr..

went to joy's house after that. sarah koay and shinq were alr there. yeah. it was fun. na came later. it was weird but great overall! hahas. got a lift back from her dad. yup. giving linna chem tuition tho im not so sure bout some things myself. its gonna be a busy week!

at 6:40 PM, she let go.

nice song

I guess it all comes down to where your heart is.
Its there your thoughts and feelings all begin,
and if you never give your heart to Jesus,
you'll never really have a part with Him.

If your treasure is up in heaven,
Then you heart will be there too,
and the things you say and do will be with love.
But if your treasure is here on earth
tell me where your heart will be
you'll never have apart of things above.

If your mind set on the Spirit,
And your walking in God's love,
Then the watching world will see Christ's life in you.
But if your mind is set on earthly things,
Then earthly things you'll do,
In poverty you'll live your whole life through.

For a man looks on the outside,
Only outward things he sees
He can never look down deep inside your heart
Only God knows what you think and feel,
His eyes are just right there,
He sees you as you've been right from the start.

So I guess it all comes down to where your heart is.
Its there your thoughts and feelings all begin,
and if you never give your heart to Jesus,
you'll never really have a part with Him.

at 7:21 AM, she let go.

Sunday, August 08, 2004
sniff sniff sniff

took a nap before lunch, taking a bath and then yf. dave practically repeated the whole message again! but i guess that was the point. haha ok. he added in some extra stuffs. ate porridge for lunch and dinner cos i had a scratchy throat. eeks. ok. slept at like 8 plus. early but i needed the rest.

and doesnt seemed like it worked cos im still quite sick. fever keeps coming back on off. went to church anyway. think the message was cool. quite intellectual. cos its like you have to really think out of the box to see how the speaker's linking what is happening to what is written in revelations. yup. waited for 2nd service worship to be over and we all went down to tim pang's mum's old condo for cg gathering. ordered pizza and toasted finger food. they bought chips and drinks too. watched school of rock again. its funny ((: then we played guesstures. some kind of timed charades game. quite fun. yup. left at about 4.15 and walked to hougang mall with nat, chrys, and sarah. they went to wait for nat's mum to get a lift and i went to find daddy who was somewhere getting a haircut. dropped by the library too. chem remedial's on tues aft. when i'll be ****** *******. how nice. think im gonna flunk this test. grr. think my voice is going to go soon.

at 5:39 PM, she let go.

Saturday, August 07, 2004
it was friday!!!

halfday in school. woke up with a sore throat. think cos it was the vege chips thingy that dady offered us last night. went by bus cos daddy got conference at the office. yup. think it was quite a waste of time. we should have been celebrating but cos we had celebrations on thurs we were studying! physics was quite ok. we thought the new teacher was going to teach but he didnt. mrs low started on work. as in work done.. yeah. then p.e. we played softball. it was quite fun except for the fact that i kept on sniffing and got really lethargic. maths was the last period. and mrs yeo gave hw! how sad but its quite expected. haha

went for the prefects meeting. and ms low and mrs kuek couldnt come cos they had another meeting. so we just rehearsed. yup. went home after that to eat lunch and take a bath and dump my stuff. yup. was still sniffing before i left so i took piriton. but it was lousy cos i was still sniffing throughout the whole day. met marilyn, cynthia, linna, samneo and caroline at orchard. they were late so i went to popular to look for fabric paint but couldnt find. yeah. when everyone finally came we went to far east cos linna and cyn wanted to get hairbands. and then i realised that i was going to freeze in the theatre tho the weather was so hot cos i was wearing sleeveless and shorts. how nice. so we looked around for a pullover. went opp to pac plaza to look but couldnt find.

we fit people walked all the way to dhoby ghaut plaza sing. haha. was quite fun. reached there with enough time to get ljs fries for linna, walk around carrfour for dunno what, and get drinks and popcorn. yup we watched ella enchanted. the storyline was quite different from the book. but it was still a nice movie. some parts were really funny. it was sweet. haha. i borrowed linna's pullover but was still freezing. haha. mrs yoohenthran said that our class was suckers for love stories and stuff like that cos of what happened on thursday. haha. but isn't it quite natural? oh wells. haha. met stelli to pass her her hairband. saw her new haircut. looks abit jap and weird but i dunno. we'll get used to it.

after that we rushed into our train and waved bye to sam as it went off. she had something on so couldnt join us for zhen fa huo hai xian. from the marina south mrt station to the bus stop there's this walkway. and we were getting approached by these people who offered bbq services at their shop for 5 - 10 bucks? yeah. but it was quite scary cos there were so many of them and they even had a mini van to take people to their shop. freaky cos u wouldnt exactly trust them right? yeah. but still there was this group of ladies who actually went! eeks. when 400 came, there was a big rush for the bus. but we managed to get in. packed.

at zhen fa we took cooked food, raw food and whatever. just ate. ahaha. and now we're all skilled meat fryers. we can fry meat! whee. lols. ate till about 8.50pm? yeah. then when we were waiting for the bus we were talking about the funny things some teachers do. and the popcorn throwing scenarios. haha. damn funny. then cos we were all so full couldnt laugh properly. was really retarded. haha. yeah. we all smelt like bbq after that. like duh. haha. took mrt. and cynthia was telling scary stories. but she and marilyn got off at dhoby ghaut so wasnt that bad. hahas. went home. and sneezed a whole load. and my throat was still sore. so i concluded i was sick. haha. and im still sick now. with a sore throat, blocked nose, fever? yeah. irritating. but it's quite sudden. dunno if im going for the cg gathering on sunday. see how.

at 8:30 AM, she let go.

Thursday, August 05, 2004

turned out i didnt practice my cello. watched soccer instead. haha. yeah. stayed up till 11 memorising chengyu.

yesterday. the killer day. mrs ang never come so we copied more stuff. mrs low was very funny during physics. haha. ripped from jiaxin's bloggie:
-if only, only if, if only if, if & only if!
-amanda give you, give me, give US the answer!
-do you see smoke coming out of my nose?
-how about the other school of thought?
yup. all those came from her. hahas. she's so cute ((: ok. then the back of the class. me, geri, trish, xinn, hanny, and lou were singing national day songs can? haha. mrs low was staring at us. lol. she let us off 10 mintues earlier for recess! so we sorta had class recess. what's more it was fried food day. haha. ok. then went to take pmb photo. quite fast. went to mep room to photocopy the namelist for joy. told mr wong that i lost the score and he was like. oh nvm. dont need to practice one! whatever. then after that was eng. supposed to do review but ms fazi let us practice the racial harmony skit. went to try on my skirt thingy to see if i could fit. but as expected i couldnt. cos the thing is with me since p5? im sure i can fit. like real. lent it to jeanette ((: borrowed one of eileen's blue pyjama thingys. haha. ok. then when we were rehearsing again near the end of the period, zhanglaoshi suddenly opened the door and she got a shock cos everyone was sitting in front. haha. yeah. chinese test was surprisingly easy. maybe cos our class got hints about the zao ju. but still it was easy. yeah. slept for the last 15 mintues. really slept lah. so shiok. haha. took class photo with linna, marilyn, caroline, cynthia and stelli! yup. sam's a good photographer. and she's funny. haha. i always end up laughing nonstop whenever i am with her. and if linna's there too. haha. we'll just laugh at each other for laughing at other people. lols. ok. yeah. during lunch was so funny. linna picks up her phone. explains to person1 that she's not going to buy presents. then she tells the person to wait. looks at the phone and says. ok swop. presses button and talks to person2 who asks her the same thing as person1. then she hangs up and changes back to person1. yup. then she was so panicky. just laughing at a dabao who looks confused and flushed. ok. nvm. probably doesnt make sense to u people. but me and sam were laughing at linna and at ourselves laughing at her. haha. ok. forget it. went for mep and crapped out rubbish for the composition performances. yup. mr wong teach damn fast lah. now we have another composition assignment. compose a pop song. very can lah. he ended at like 4? we had practically half an hour break? so went to the canteen. came back for mr cher's lesson. a bit draggy but ok lah. tried to do chem when i came back but failed miserably. so hard. or at least im lost and dunno how to do? haha. slept at nine plus cos i was darn tired.

today. did the skit. then went round the sec one level looking around with marilyn, cynthia, stelli and caroline. linna was at band so couldnt join us. did henna! haha. mary's pro-ded. she can draw the designs really well ((: haha. went to 2faith. my fav sec 2 class! cos most of my juniors are in there. haha. got some food. some funny pancake thing with curry. nice ((: ate at the specs stand watching the sec 4's play tug of war. haha. quite funny. like on class(one side) has valencia and pathathai all those very strong people then the other side is 3 charity with da shuwei helping them. dashuwei's strong k. but their team still lost. aww. but it was fun watching. haha. went to the canteen to eat proper food after changing out. rushed down to mep room to take s.o. comm photo. then went back to class for lessons. mrs ang didnt come again so we had 1 free period. whole class was singing national day songs... haha. so enthu all of a sudden. but we got scolded by 2 to 3 classes cos we were too loud... oops! then during lit mrs yoohenthran let us watch the rest of twelfth night ((: its quite funny. haha. had a good laugh. and the ending was so sweet! we had to keep on replaying it cos the windows media player didnt want to let us watch the nice nice ending without having to send error reports in between... pfft! after we returned to class, xinn and lulu went to get jiantong's b'dae cake! when jt walked into the class we all sang a birthday song for her.. and her SHE superstar thingy... hahas. think she was quite shocked too... yup. ms fazi let us slack again. ling did more henna for me with the guide's leftover stuff. nice nice. met claire after school. ate lunchie. then went out to go shopping! haha. bought **** ******** ********. yup. so tiring. and heavy. but it was fun (: spent a bomb. esp claire. scary. got a lift home from daddy. and so im sitting here blogging. probably going out tmr after school and that meeting. yup. and zhen fa huo hai xian ((: haha. gtg do ss essay now.

*oh yeah forgot to add something. i saw my big retarded ant again! haha. its so cute ((((:

at 7:20 PM, she let go.

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

church was okay on sunday. went out for a b'dae lunch for russ. but since we were early we went to check out the phone. yup. its nice. haha. ok. then lunch was at this place called lawry's at paragon. mostly ribs and stuff. quite nice ambience and service. food was quite alright. yup. after we went home i fiddled with my phone then went to take a nap. studied before and after dinner. hanyou told me that she had lesson on monday so i had to go.

yup. then monday the test was weird. cos everyone focused on the events but no one really took note of the dates and in the end, one of the questions asked about the period of time btw 19** and 1933 and everyone was like what? haha. yup. went home and practiced piano. aafter piano lesson, went down to the carpark and got a huge shock. the back windscreen of the car had cracked under some crappy pressure and was quite shattered but still quite intact except for some holes here and there. yup. scary. then we went to hanyou's teacher's house. when i got out i accidentally closed the door a tad too hard the thing came crashing down *oops! yeah. so he went to get more tape to fix it while waiting. yeah. sorta screwed up my own night. and hanyou's. cos i got scolded for not knowing my part well enough by her teacher. yup and what's more her exam's next week. feel really guilty after that. so we went home and stayed up till 11 helping daddy to tape the back part in case of rain the next morning. we did a good job ((: haha. vacuumed the insides too.

today. was an okay day. haha. yeah. was quite tired tho. always seem to have dry pain eyes when i dont get enough sleep. its irritating. keep on borrowing eyedrops from linna. didnt really do much. stayed back in school to study chinese with lulu chew. finished my maths hw too so i can focus on other stuff. yup. still left with quite a bit of cramming to do. oh yeah! thank God that anqing agreed to be hanyou's pianist! tho its kinda last minute and still do feel guilty on backing out quite last minute but it'll be even worse if i can't get it right by the exam and just screw everything up for her. yup. have to go practice cello for the 12 note thingy tmr. dont feel like playing. pfft.

at 7:05 PM, she let go.

Sunday, August 01, 2004
Love, Me

Love, Me
by Collin Raye

I read a note my Grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said
Boy you might not understand,
but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
And I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said:

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

I read those words just hours
Before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry
In all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

at 10:51 AM, she let go.