Saturday, April 30, 2005
freed!

yeah! sports day is over (: red got third but i'm happy any how. debbie uploaded our syf recording online here. dvorak's really good. and listening to it reminded me where i totally screwed up. but the piece on a whole was good. respighi was too fast! like really really too fast la. and i heard fig 15. crap man. rahh!

went for pizza hut after sports day. not alot of the comm went but nvm. was quite funny just listening to annabel and adelene crapping away. haha. they're crazy la. had some set meal with cherie and annabel and adelene. was quite full after that. and sleepy too. think last year's comm was the best man. we ate pizza hut and laughed more than we ate. was so crappy. adelene came after school to support us as well (: haha. mrs yeo danced the family dance with us. so farnie la. haha. and she wore a kimono too during the cheer routine. yup. i owe alot of people alot of big hugs and thank yous. i need to get presents.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005
gold

strings got gold for syf. as jana says, "was waiting for that HONOURS to appear out of that stupid emcee's mouth. ohwells. we worked so bloody hard for it. and we have come much furthur than all the other string orch's. " i guess we could say that but i still feel down. mr chan said fig 15 wasnt together. and if that was the only thing that pulled us down im gonna tear my hair out. i know i played some note in dvorak out of tune too. think many of the sec 3s and 4s were really upset, including me. was happy for that moment but after we came out we were super sad. practically the whole viola/vln 3 section was crying la.

gold with honours: nanyang, dunman high, ri
gold: SN! , mgs, rgs, hci, acs(i),
silver: tkgs, nanchiau
bronze: dunman

anyhow, i just wanna say that im super duper proud of strings '05 who are in syf cos i think that everyone has really put in a whole lot of hard work and everyone deserves a pat on the back. haha. yup. <3 you guys loads okay!

one down, one more to go!

Friday, April 22, 2005
one more week!

oh. now the school's got gold for all pa groups. thanks la. but congrats to everyone who's in the syf groups, you all did a great job (:

next week's gonna be a stressful week. i dont like this at all. but i think its a good chance for me to really learn to be so trusting and dependent on God to work His ways cos i really dunno how im gonna survive, but somehow, i will.

today was a funny day. found out that mrs yeo stays so near me! and mrs khong too. this is scary. haha. and mrs yeo sashayed in class today. she's gonna wear her wedding gown on monday so that we can take nice pictures of her (that's what she siad, really!) hahah. cos everytime we try to take a photo of her, she says that we never inform her and she doesnt have the chance to dress up and look nice. monday it shall be.

mr chan made us play really soft and expressionless for the pieces to make us work on intonation and timing. then we played with the articulation and all and it sounded so much nicer. half way through dvorak, when he cued us in for trio, he lost his balance on the mep room wooden step and was trying so hard not to fall so his arms were flying everywhere and that really drove us nuts la. hahah. was such a sight! and then he was telling us about this conductor long time ago, who got so engrossed when conducting sso that he stepped off the podium and hit the floor, but one hand was grabbing the conductor's stand and the other still waving the baton. super funny la! and the whole orch was bobbing as they continued to play cos they were stifling their laughter. ahhas. couldnt play cos we were all laughing so hard till our sides ached.

took a cab back with anqing. and i stink bad. haha. i need a bath pronto.

Thursday, April 21, 2005
oh brothers!

brothers can be such a pain in the ass sometimes. rahh.

i just asked my bro for some like suggestions on what i could include in the march past reading. then when he was talking to me, i was chatting with my friends and i didnt hear what he said. i asked him to repeat and he says that he wont repeat it cos if i didnt want to hear it, then why ask? then im like okay la.

like five minutes later he says he's angry with me cos when i asked him for something, i was not ready to listen. and that it was one of his best advices ever. then i told him, well if you think its the best advice and you dont want me to hear it then fine. go away.

so irritating.

i'm really trying very hard not to fail hcl this term but its not really working. i failed the test which i felt i studied so hard for. i could have passed if the teachers allowed one mark for two mark qns.

only one more week to the end of it all. quickly!

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
salvation's so sweet

oh. alliteration. hahah. God's been good and He's shown His goodness (: im glad for that. the pics from cyn's b'day are up. how embarassing the photos are but so fun (:

Sunday, April 17, 2005

oh ho. im super lethargic now. i have no idea why. and i suddenly feel the need to get my act together. feel that i've been slacking way too much, esp since my chinese is not doing very well. crap man.

went to church at around 11.20 yesterday. studied for about an hour with sarah and eugene and then we went up the hill to eat. came back down for worship. felt weird singing alone but i guess its alright. couldnt really hear myself tho. haha. anyway, was planning to leave after the message but when i walked out the sky looked quite threatening and i decided to stay and get daddy to fetch me later instead. thank God i did. like ten minutes later it was pouring like crazy. so yeah, i reached around 6.40.

linna and marilyn came to pick me and lala from the bus stop and they kept complaining cos they got mozzie bites. then i was quite scared cos i thot i'd get even more than them but ended up with nothing (: hahahs. yeah it was wild. super fun. and we took stupid photos and did silly stuff. haha. sprinkled a whole lot of glitter on cynthia after the birthday song and we all became glittery. but i guess she got it the worst. glittered daddy's carseat when i got into the car. heh. slept at 11.45 after doing some hw. i left my amaths book in school and realised i have hw to do. oh well.

think today's sermon was good, kinda think it's a lil similar to yesterday's, which was good too. was sniffing throughout cos i slept in aircon last night and ended up sitting under the aircon today which made it worse. bahh. ate chicken rice for lunch. queued super long for it and i dont think its anything great but the queue gets really long. and i realised that its cos the guys chops his chicken really slowly and just holds up the whole queue. waited almost half an hour i think? yeah.

ended up eating like 1 and 1/3 packets cos we didnt know if jie was eating and she wasnt so daddy didnt want to leave anything and we shared the packet. i have a feeling that i got the most cos i was taking my time to eat my own packet and then he and russ took what they wanted first so like everything else was left to me. was so stuffed after that. and sleepy. haha. slept for 2 hours plus. shall go eat dinner.

Friday, April 15, 2005
icantthinkofatitleatthemoment

oh no, pressure of getting gold for syf is getting bigger. band got gold, dance got gold (chinese and modern), choir got gold. ld's still waiting for results and co and so have yet to go for syf. so scary! had another prep talk today, made it seem as if syf is next week or something... stress!

cyn's birthday party tmr (: gen baked her a cake today. its so nice okay. i thought she bought it till she told me she baked it. so chocolatey and yummy (: i love it. haha.

think cca today was rather productive and good, think we played quite well (:

come on so! we can do it okay? and we can go celebrate after we bring back that gold (with honours if possible)

2 more weeks and everything, i mean EVERYTHING, will be over. in 2 weeks at this time, i'll be with the comm eating pizza hut. hahah (:

Sunday, April 10, 2005
sun-kissed (orange)

sentosa was great (: thot that there wasnt gonna be much sun and there wasnt for the whole morning. our cg only ended up with four pathetic people for the morning outing. me, amy, rah and zech. and sarah woke up late. haha, was quite funny. wonder what time she'll wake up if i didnt call her. sort of tanned and had fun talking to amy and rah. think zech felt quite left out but he was like stoning most of the time.

when me and rah were waiting to use the toilet beside 7-11 (single cubicle) there was this ah pek, okay maybe not ah pek, some mid 40s guy in green sitting on the bench directly outside the entrance of 7-11. and he kept staring at us. and me and sarah were like "eh, digusting pervert, keeps looking at us, can he just go away?" so sick la. and we sort of looked at him but he just continued staring la. wanted to slap him. had sakae sushi for lunch and it was fun. the sun came out when we went in to eat, thanks la. gloria joined us later. at palawan beach there was another group of people in orange shirts so it was quite misleading. heh.

think the reflection time and cg time was good. the game was weird. ended so abruptly. was like the earliest to leave i think cos my dad wanted me home for dinner. so i left ard 6.30. yeah. only ate dinner at like 8.30. and then slacked ard and slept. hahah. woke up for first service this morning. thot that i could come back early and start on some work. ended up waiting for sarah to go for lunch up the hill cos she had to go to rindu at 1. and then came back down, went to tp popular to get stuff. reached home at the time i would if i went for second. so crappy. ahha.

saw something really really cool on my way out to the bus stop. at the park, there are like all these big trees with really small pink flowers, alot of flowers. and over night these flowers dropped. but they never touched the ground. there were many big spider webs that i never saw there. and these flowers got caught by the webs and were hanging by a strand of web, all at different lengths. it was so cool la. it was as if time had frozen in the midst of their 'descent' to the ground. really really nice. on my way home, most of the webs had given way and the flowers had either dropped or many strands of web stuck together. guess i'll never get to see that again unless im really lucky. God's creations are cool (:

now im sleepy. how to do work!? think tonight i'll be burning the midnight oil again. heh. it is such a hot day!

Friday, April 08, 2005
joke of the year!

HAHAHA! i found out something interesting today after cca (: ** *** is getting married! well that's what my juniors say la but i think its quite true. haha. was so amused when they told me that. cca was funny too. mr chan was trying to sit on the stool in a weird position and we were all laughing we couldnt play when he wanted to start. haha. then he was saying that he should get a new stool. and jana said, "do you notice that your chair is always lower when u come for cca?" i wonder why... hahahs. super retarded.

God works miracles (: He's healed me! i feel so much better and more energised today as compared to yesterday. cant wait for tmr. going to sentosa. oh, fun fun (: oh yeah. there'll be audits for some people next tues. quite worried for my juniors. hope that they'll really make use of the weekends to practice hard cos there's only a certain extent to which me and tessa can help them.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

oh joy its one of those im-having-a-stuffy-nose-and-i-think-im-sick kind of days. rahh. been constantly blowing my nose and sneezing and sniffing non stop. thank God it stopped when i went with xinlei and angie to lead the pri cheer. but it came back after that. i feel like skipping school tmr and just go for cca. i need a break. and i mean a real break. what kind of a life is this la. and i keep getting bitten by mozzies. so itchy.

i feel like cutting my hair. but that would mean more clips which i dont really like. thank God i didnt get scolded for wearing pe today. wanted to go and run with lala in the morning but she came late so in the end we didnt run. i should take a bath and sleep now.

Monday, April 04, 2005
choice or chance

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When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there are a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, and attraction come to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice - a choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."

I believe that soul mates do exist, that there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.

We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love, BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.

Author Unknown
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oh ho ho. hectic life. im tired of it all.

:big - planet shakers
My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams

My God is good
He's so good to me

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand

My God is Big
So Strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

There's nothing my God cannot do